H-4 Hari Natal tahun 2015. Hari Natal adalah hari yang dirayakan sebagai hari kelahiran Tuhan kita, Yesus Kristus, ke dunia sebagai manusia yang mengorbankan diriNya untuk menyelamatkan kita manusia yang berdosa (aku salah satunya). Natal selalu aku ingat sebagai periode yang membawa keajaiban, keceriaan, kebahagiaan, kedamaian, cinta kasih, bagiku dan bagi orang - orang di sekitar diriku.
Demikian juga dengan Natal kali ini, aku mendapat hadiah Natal yang sangat indah dari Tuhan Yesus. Tuhan Yesus mengabulkan doa permohonanku agar aku diterima program master Accounting Finance di Erasmus University Rotterdam dan aku juga diterima sebagai awardee beasiswa LPDP 2015 tahap 4. Aku benar - benar tidak menyangka bahwa aku bisa diterima program master di EUR & beasiswa LPDP, karena aku tidak punya kepercayaan diri yang cukup tinggi. Akan tetapi, Tuhan Yesus benar - benar menunjukkan cinta kasihnya kepadaku. Tuhan Yesus memberikan aku kepercayaan untuk belajar menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik dan pada saatnya nanti bisa berguna bagi sesama dan dapat menjadi saluran berkat cinta kasih Tuhan bagi sesama.
Terima kasih Tuhan Yesus.
Aku berjanji bahwa aku tidak akan menyia - nyiakan anugerah cinta kasih yang telah diberikan Tuhan Yesus padaku. Aku akan berusaha sebaik - baiknya untuk belajar dan mengembangkan diri menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik lagi dan selalu berjalan di jalan terang kasih Tuhan. Aku ingin bisa menjadi saluran berkat rahmat untuk orang - orang di sekitar ku. Amien....
Tidak terasa waktu berlalu sangat cepat dan aku sudah berusia 26 tahun sekarang.
Post terakhir di blog aku lakukan tanggal 10 Agustus 2014, dan hari ini sudah 15 Oktober 2015.
Lebih dari satu tahun aku tidak pernah memposting apa pun di blog ini dan banyak hal yang terjadi dalam satu tahun ini.
Jatuh cinta dan patah hati, berjuang bangkit kembali, resign dari pekerjaan, fokus pada rencana melanjutkan sekolah, semakin dekat dengan keluarga dan Tuhan Yesus.
Jatuh Cinta dan Patah Hati....
Aku jatuh cinta lagi pada seorang teman dekat, yang aku tidak pernah terbayang bisa benar - benar sayang padanya (Even right now. Ok, tapi saya sudah move on kok! Omg, curcol abis :p).
Akhirnya kita jadian, tetapi enam bulan kemudian aku tersadar kalau rasa sayang saja tidak cukup. Banyak hal yang kita pertimbangkan sebagai manusia dewasa saat kita berbicara tentang teman hidup. Bahkan saat kita sudah merasa sangat pengertian dan bisa menerima dia apa adanya, tetap ada satu atau beberapa hal yang sangat prinsip yang harus dipenuhi oleh calon teman hidup kita. Sesuatu yang benar - benar tidak bisa kita toleransi.
Pada akhirnya mengakhiri hubungan ini adalah keputusan yang harus aku ambil. Love is about Choice.
If you want to know what i mean please watch video from Wong Fu Production - Accumulated (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xb2hqzs6VGE).
Berjuang Bangkit Kembali dari Patah Hati....
Walau hanya berhubungan enam bulan, yang namanya patah hati atau putus cinta tetap saja sangat berat dan menyedihkan. Akan tetapi, tidak perduli seberat atau sesedih apa pun kita harus bangkit!
Oleh karena itu, hal pertama dan paling penting yang aku lakukan adalah memaafkan dia dan diri ku sendiri. Setelah itu, mengikhlaskan semua hal yang sudah berlalu.
Aku tidak bisa bilang bahwa aku sudah tidak ada perasaannya padanya lagi, tetapi dengan maaf dan ikhlas aku yakin aku bisa bergerak maju dan memperbaiki diri.
Aku mulai mencoba untuk menata rencana masa depan ku dan fokus pada cita - cita.
Dan yang terpenting adalah semakin dekat dengan keluarga dan Tuhan Yesus.
Ada satu video dari Wong Fu Production yang membantu ku untuk melewati saat - saat terberat putus cita - After Us.
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOFI213MuKM)
Resign dari Pekerjaan....
20 Juli 2015 adalah hari di mana aku menyerahkan surat pengunduran diri dari kantor tempat ku bekerja saat ini. Keputusan resign ini bukanlah keputusan yang aku ambil tanpa pertimbangan sebelumnya (aku sudah bertapa selama bertahun - tahun untuk mendapatkan pencerahan ini :p).
Aku sangat bersyukur pada Tuhan karena sudah mengirimku bekerja di kantor ini selama empat tahun. Aku memperoleh banyak pelajaran dan pengalaman berharga, yang baik secara langsung maupun tidak langsung sudah membentukku menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik, mandiri, kuat, percaya diri, dll.
Akan tetapi, setiap orang pasti ingin lebih maju dan berkembang, serta memiliki cita - cita yang ingin dicapai. Oleh karena itu, aku memutuskan untuk keluar dari zona nyaman dan bekerja keras untuk mencapai cita - citaku.
OST It's Okay, That's Love (Romanization, Hangeul, Translation)
-Song of the day-
Nowadays, i'm watching the Korean Drama "It's Okay, That's Love. I love this drama very much and this song makes me want to cry everytime i listen to this song. T_T
Romanization
neol saranghago isseoyo hoksi nae mam anboinayo budi meoreojiji marayo nae nunmuri tteoreojiryeohanikka naneun neoreul gidarigo isseo gateun jari gateungose isseo gyeouljina bomi oneungeotcheoreom (with you) padocheoreom millyeodeuneun maeum byeolbiccheoreom ssodajineun nunmul nae gaseume buseojyeonaerinda wae nal saranghaji anheulkka (wae anilkka) wae meorissogeul doradanilkka (love you) amumaldo nan hal su eobseotgetjiman( i don`t wanna cry) urijibape noksaekjibunge geujibe niga hoksi salgo isseulkka bamsaedorok geu jimman chyeodaboneungeol neol saranghago inneunde hoksi nae mam anboini budi meoreojiji marajwo nae nunmuri tteoreojiryeohanikka jajuipdeon oetu nalgeun galsaegui ja jibe ganeun beoseu jajugadeon sikdang i modeungeosi da neoe daehan gieok i remember you neoui dangolsuljip indideurui norae oraedoen seuweteo ppalgansaek mokdori imodeungeosi da neoe daehan gieok you know? biga omyeon pihalgoseul chatdeut himi deulmyeon jamsi swieogadeut neoui dwireul na hangsang jikyeojultende(with you) siganeun beolsseo jeonyeogeul jina goyohage sesangeun nungama na honjaman neol hyanghan bulmyeonjeung na honja oettanseominga animyeon nae maeume gamogeul tto jieonna saranghan joero batneun beorigien neomu gahokhae nae mameul jeungohae i know it love is pain paransaek oetusoge gugyeonoheun pyeonji kkeutnaeneun motjeonhal nae maeumui jinsil oeroun nae binbang honjaseo gobaekhaneun seulpeun oneulbam neol saranghae neol saranghago inneunde hoksi nae mam anboini(boiji annni) budi meoreojiji marajwo nae nunmuri tteoreojiryeohanikka tonight i wanna cry oh lady tell me why na jammotdeuneun oeroun ibam tonight i wanna cry oh lady tell me why neol saenggakhamyeon sseulsseulhan ibam Hangeul 널 사랑하고 있어요 혹시 내 맘 안보이나요 korean 부디 멀어지지 말아요 내 눈물이 떨어지려하니까 나는 너를 기다리고 있어 같은 자리 같은곳에 있어 겨울지나 봄이 오는것처럼 (with you) 파도처럼 밀려드는 마음 별빛처럼 쏟아지는 눈물 내 가슴에 부서져내린다 왜 날 사랑하지 않을까 (왜 아닐까) 왜 머릿속을 돌아다닐까 (love you) 아무말도 난 할 수 없었겠지만( i don`t wanna cry) 우리집앞에 녹색지붕에 그집에 니가 혹시 살고 있을까 밤새도록 그 집만 쳐다보는걸 널 사랑하고 있는데 혹시 내 맘 안보이니 부디 멀어지지 말아줘 내 눈물이 떨어지려하니까 자주입던 외투 낡은 갈색의 자 집에 가는 버스 자주가던 식당 이 모든것이 다 너에 대한 기억 i remember you 너의 단골술집 인디들의 노래 오래된 스웨터 빨간색 목도리 이모든것이 다 너에 대한 기억 you know? 비가 오면 피할곳을 찾듯 힘이 들면 잠시 쉬어가듯 너의 뒤를 나 항상 지켜줄텐데(with you) 시간은 벌써 저녁을 지나 고요하게 세상은 눈감아 나 혼자만 널 향한 불면증 나 혼자 외딴섬인가 아니면 내 마음에 감옥을 또 지었나 사랑한 죄로 받는 벌이기엔 너무 가혹해 내 맘을 증오해 i know it love is pain 파란색 외투속에 구겨놓은 편지 끝내는 못전할 내 마음의 진실 외로운 내 빈방 혼자서 고백하는 슬픈 오늘밤 널 사랑해 널 사랑하고 있는데 혹시 내 맘 안보이니(보이지 않니) 부디 멀어지지 말아줘 내 눈물이 떨어지려하니까 tonight i wanna cry oh lady tell me why 나 잠못드는 외로운 이밤 tonight i wanna cry oh lady tell me why 널 생각하면 쓸쓸한 이밤 Translation
I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart? Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall
I am waiting for you I’m at the same spot, at the same place Just like how spring comes after the winter (with you)
Feelings rush over me like waves Tears fall like the star light It crushes into my heart
Why don’t you love me? (Why?) Why are you in my head? (Love you) I can’t say anything but (I don’t wanna cry)
The green roof in front of my house Are you living there? All night, I’m staring at that house
I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart? Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall
The coat you always wore, the worn out, brown ruler The bus that goes home, the restaurant you always went to These are all memories of you, I remember you
The indie songs that played in your favorite bar Your old sweater, your red scarf These are all memories of you, you know?
Like finding shelter when it rains Like resting when things get hard I would always protect you from behind (with you)
It’s already past evening The world silently closes its eyes Only I have insomnia because of you
Am I the only deserted island? Or did I set up a prison in my heart? This is too cruel to be a punishment for love I hate my heart I know it love is pain
The crumpled up letter in my blue coat It’s my true heart that I couldn’t tell you In my lonely empty room, I confess alone on this sad night I love you
I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart? Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall
Tonight I wanna cry oh lady tell me why On this sleepless and lonely night
Tonight I wanna cry oh lady tell me why A lonely night at thoughts of you
OST It's Okay, That's Love (Romanization, Hangeul, Translation)
Romanization
Amuraedo nan niga joah amureon maldo eobsi utdon nareul anajwo babe oneuleun gidaryeotjyo geudae dalkomhan nareul bwayo geudae yeah~ jikyeojulkeyo babe maeil maeil kkumul kkujyo geudae soneul japgo naraga yeongwonhi eonjekkajina ** Bogosipeun naui sarang unmyeong ijyo pihalsudo eobjyo Everyday, I'm so lucky sumgyeowotdeon nae mameul gobaek hallae neoreul saranghae ddeollideon nae ipsuldo geudae seolledeon i maeumdo geudae nae sarangijyo babe ireonge sarang ingeol aljyo geudaega isseo haengbokhajyo yeah~ sarangiyeyo, babe. geudae soneul japgo naraga yeongwonhi eonjekkajina ** Bogosipeun naui sarang unmyeong ijyo pihalsudo eobjyo Everyday, I'm so lucky sumgyeowotdeon nae mameul gobaek hallae neoreul saranghae naui modureul geolmankeum neol saranghago akkyeojundago geudae yaksokhalkeyo, oh~ sigan jina modu byeonhaedo i sesangi kkeutnandahaedo naui saranga~ geudae naege haengunijyo pihalsudo eobjyo Everyday, I'm so lucky sumgyeowotdeon nae mameul gobaek hallae neoreul saranghae Hangeul 아무래도 난 니가 좋아 아무런 말도 없이 웃던 나를 아나줘 babe 오늘은 기다렸죠 그대 달콤한 나를 봐요 그대 예~ 지켜줄게요 babe 매일 매일 꿈을 꾸죠 그대 손을 잡고 날아가 영원히 언제까지나 *** 보고싶은 나의 사랑 운명이죠 피할수도 없죠 Everyday, I'm so lucky 숨겨웠던 내 맘을 고백할래 너를 사랑해 떨리던 내 입술도 그대 설레던 이 마음도 그대 내 사랑이죠, babe 이런게 사랑 인걸 알죠 그대가 있어 행복하죠 예~ 사랑이예요, babe. 매일 매일 꿈을 꾸죠 그대 손을 잡고 날아가 영원히 언제까지나 *** 보고싶은 나의 사랑 운명이죠 피할수도 없죠 Everyday, I'm so lucky 숨겨웠던 내 맘을 고백할래 너를 사랑해 (디오랑) 나의 모두를 걸만큼 널 사랑하고 아껴준다고 그대 약속할게요~ oh~ 시간 지나 모두 변해도 이 세상이 끝난다해도 나의 사랑아~ 그대 내게 행운이죠 피할수도 없죠 Everyday, I'm so lucky 숨겨웠던 내 맘을 고백할래
너를 사랑해 Translation
Anyway, I really like you You hugged me when I was quietly smiling babe I waited for today, for your sweetness Look at me, I’ll protect you babe I dream every day Of holding your hand and flying forever, until always
My love, I miss you It’s destiny, you can’t avoid it Every day I’m so lucky I want to confess my hidden heart, I love you
My trembling lips, your fluttering heart You are my love babe I know that this is love I’m happy because of you This is love babe I dream every day Of holding your hand and flying forever, until always
My love, I miss you It’s destiny, you can’t avoid it Every day I’m so lucky I want to confess my hidden heart, I love you
I love you so much that I could risk my everything I’ll promise you that I’ll care for you Even if time passes and everything changes Even if the world ends, my love
You are my luck, I can’t avoid it Every day I’m so lucky I want to confess my hidden heart, I love you
-Song of the day-
My song of the day for today is It's a Beautiful Day from Michael Buble.
I chose this song because i knew that my life was lighter without thinking about boyfriend or my future soulmate.
Now, i just want to live happily everyday, reach all my dreams, and make my family happy and proud of me.
It's a Beautiful Day
I don't know why
You think that you could hold me
When you couldn't get by by yourself
And I don't know who
Would ever want to tear the seam of someone's dream
Baby, it's fine, you said that we should just be friends
Well, I came up with that line and I'm sure
That it's for the best
If you ever change your mind, don't hold your breath
'Cause you may not believe, mmm mmm mmm
That baby, I'm relieved, mmm
When you said goodbye, my whole world shined
Hey hey hey
It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling
If we're drinking, then I'm buying
And I know there's no denying
It's a beautiful day, the sun is up, the music's playing
And even if it started raining
You won't hear this boy complaining
'Cause I'm glad that you're the one who got away
It's a beautiful day
It's my turn to fly, so girls, get in line
'Cause I'm easy, no playing this guy like a fool
Now I'm alright
Might've had me caged before, but not tonight
And you may not believe, mmm mmm
That baby, I'm relieved
This fire inside, it burns too bright
I don't want to say "so long," I just want to say "goodbye"
It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling
If we're drinking, then I'm buying
And I know there's no denying
It's a beautiful day, the sun is up, the music's playing
And even if it started raining
You won't hear this boy complaining
'Cause I'm glad that you're the one who got away, mmm mmm
'Cause if you ever think I'll take up
My time with thinking of our break-up
Then you've got another thing coming your way
'Cause it's a beautiful day, mmm mmm
Beautiful day, oh, baby, any day that you're gone away
-Song of the day-
Today is my Parents 29th year Wedding Anniversary Day.
I'm very happy because i have the best Papz and Mamz in the world.
They are not the most perfect parents in the world but i know God sent the best parents for me.
Happy wedding anniversary to my lovely Antonius Sunarto and Agnes Sri Ika Anggraeni.
I hope you will always happy, love each other, healthy....
And i hope i can give you the best happiness in your life because both of you have been giving happiness in my life too.
Jesus always loves you both.
I love you Papz and Mamz.
And, today i want to dedicate my song of the day , I Choose to Love You, for my lovely parents.
hajiman naui maeumeul ijeneun arajwosseumyeon hae i sesang geu nuguboda neol saranghagesseo
neol saranghagesseo eonjekkajina neol saranghagesseo jigeum i sungancheoreom i sesang geu nuguboda neol saranghagesseo
neol saranghagesseo
neol saranghagesseo eonjekkajina neol saranghagesseo jigeum i sungancheoreom i sesang geu nuguboda neol saranghagesseo
neol saranghagesseo eonjekkajina neol saranghagesseo jigeum i sungancheoreom i sesang geu nuguboda neol saranghagesseo
neol saranghagesseo eonjekkajina neol saranghagesseo jigeum i sungancheoreom i sesang geu nuguboda neol saranghagesseo
Hangeul
내 뜨거운 입술이 너의 부드러운 입술에 닿길 원해 내 사랑이 너의 가슴에 전해지도록
아직도 나의 마음을 모르고 있었다면은 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
널 사랑하겠어 언제까지나 널 사랑하겠어
지금 이 순간처럼 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
어려운 얘기로 너의 호기심을 자극할 수도 있어 그 흔한 유희로 이 밤을 보낼 수도 있어
하지만 나의 마음을 이제는 알아줬으면 해 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
*널 사랑하겠어 언제까지나 널 사랑하겠어 지금 이 순간처럼 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
널 사랑하겠어
널 사랑하겠어 언제까지나 널 사랑하겠어 지금 이 순간처럼 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
널 사랑하겠어 언제까지나 널 사랑하겠어 지금 이 순간처럼 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
널 사랑하겠어 언제까지나 널 사랑하겠어 지금 이 순간처럼 이 세상 그 누구보다 널 사랑하겠어
Translation
My hot lips want to touch your soft lips So that my love will be delivered to your heart
If you still haven’t known how I felt I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you until always, I will love you Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world I will love you
I can arouse your curiosity by saying difficult words I can spend this night with that common game
But I want you to know my heart now I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you until always, I will love you Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world I will love you
I will love you
I will love you until always, I will love you Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world I will love you I will love you until always, I will love you Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world I will love you I will love you until always, I will love you Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world I will love you
My name is Yosephine R. H. Pintarrie.
I'm a full time traveller, part time account executive --> stay in Singapore.
I love my Family very much...
I love flowers & sun, and I love my self like i love every one in the world...
^^
My Dream: married and have a happy family, and travel around the world with them.
Jesus bless me. Amen.
